Don’t what? Shut up. 

I bumped into one of the nurses who saw me through ect the other day. She told me not to let depression get me down. If that isn’t already a medication advert catchphrase in the USA, it really ought to be. It should also be permitted for me to smack anyone who says it to me. Not that nurse though, because ag shame she was being genuinely nice. 

Don’t let depression get you down, don’t let conjunctivitis spoil your view, don’t let syphilis drive you mad… 

PS thanks for all your lovely comments on my last post. And my blog just turned two. Happy birthday, blog. 

recent links about bipolar disorder

Be yourself. Don’t be evil. Show a little empathy. (Jón Gnarr)

Pick of the week is this –

“… the honesty- part of vulnerability- is allowing people to see the whole picture”
Mary Lambert Gets Real About Living With Bipolar Disorder

On the subject of the Orlando shootings…

“Ex-wife called Omar Mateen “bipolar” — but throwing term around erroneously is dangerous”
Was shooter’s ex-wife right to call him ‘bipolar’?

“My father’s unconventional way of thinking showed me that it is possible to construct the life you want, and assured me that it was ok to stand out from the crowd.”
My Father’s Bipolar Disorder Made My Life Better

““Bipolar,” it seems, has become a laugh line. An exaggeration of the basic concept of opposites, like up and down, or hot and cold.”
Bipolar disorder is nothing to make light of

“When you’re dating someone like me — someone with bipolar disorder  — you have to be ready for a bumpy ride. We are extreme. You’ll never be loved harder or shown more affection in your entire life. We’ll shower you with gifts, love letters and all of your favorite things.”
This Is Exactly What Someone With Bipolar Disorder Needs From A Relationship

I recommend the next article highly too.

“I woke up alone in the car I live in to a flat tire. My immediate resolution for the day was to decide how best to kill myself. It sounds extreme, I know; but that’s exactly what living with bipolar disorder is like for me.”
I Have Bipolar Disorder & This Is What A Mixed Episode Feels Like For Me

Bipolar Disorder Makes Me Stronger For My Boys

5 Mental Health Disorders That Are Often Misdiagnosed

Scott Stapp Opens Up About Battling Addiction & Bipolar Disorder, Possible Creed Reunion (podcast)

Maybe some inspiration for those of you writing your memoirs here. It sez she turned her blog into a book.

Bipolar Disorder May Have Genetic Links to Autism, Schizophrenia
Altered circadian somatostatin expression linked to bipolar disorder

ECT update

So my ECT got delayed yet again. I went into hospital on Thursday to have it on Friday, but the nationwide taxi protests resulted in things like felled trees burning across roads and so doctors didn’t get to the hospital… To cut a long story short, I left on Saturday and refused to go back. Shrink one then arranged for me to have it as an outpatient, so I’m going in by 6am tomorrow for the first of 12 sessions.

If you read my previous entry, you already know why I found the hospital stay intolerable. What stood out most glaringly this time, was a lot of pressured speech and psychosis all around. Friday night’s dinner of two slices of brown bread and a half litre of maas (fermented milk) didn’t cheer me up either. I kept quiet and just ate the bread, another woman bitched hard and the nurse said, “eat now, complain later!”

Anyway, I’ll write about the ECT over on OLE and repost it here on Wednesday, I just thought I’d do an interim update here. I feel like I’ve been through the wars guys. I just don’t feel like writing it at length.


well it’s a bipolar linkdump

Thanks to socialworkerangela for the reminder of this shot straight to the heart mhm… “I think there’s a flaw in my code”. Halsey is bipolar and also genius. Volume UP.

Now go listen to more y’all. Girl got game.


The them section coming up is dominated by Patty Duke, which I think is more than fair considering the sheer length of time she was vocal about her stuff. Aw and then she went and gave us lovely Sam Gamgee Sean Astin too. Rest in Peace, warrior woman.



Sean Astin on Mom Patty Duke’s Bipolar Disorder: ‘We Were All in the Storm Together’
ARCHIVAL VIDEO: Patty Duke Seeks to Promote Understanding of Manic Depression in 1989
From the PEOPLE Archive: Patty Duke Opens Up About Her Battle with Bipolar Disorder

10 Celebrities With Depression, Bipolar Disorder, or Both

Don Cheadle: ‘Miles Davis was probably bipolar

Blah F. Polar: yo mama was probably bipolar.


Some of the us section really are us – you know, our little blogosphere tribe. I know that many of you have blogging gigs in other places and I read a lot of them and then forget to stick them in my own Linkdumps. Bad, bad blahpolar. Please feel free to use my contact form to give me a heads up.


Two from Fryane:
How Electroconvulsive Therapy (ECT) Helped Me Survive to Battle Bipolar Depression
My Bipolar Mindset: Always Waiting for the Other Shoe to Drop

“I peered into the center of the universe.” Was I sick, or in search of myself?

Why I Hid The Fact I’m Bipolar For Over A Year After My Diagnosis

MY STORY: What It’s Like to Live with Bipolar Disorder and Why It’s Important to Talk About It

From The Good Men Project:
I’m a Great Dad and I Have Bipolar Disorder
My Teenage Son (Who Has Bipolar Disorder) is My Mentor


Thanks for this one, rg.
We need to find a way to talk about psychosis the way we talk about depression.

Another blogger friend at HuffPost, well done Samina, How You Treat Someone With a Mental Illness

At TEDx talk, Boise teen with bipolar disorder to deliver message: ‘I am not my illness’ “Eric Walton was the anonymous raging son in “I am Adam Lanza’s Mother”. Now he’s an inspiring success story of someone living with mental illness.

“Sometimes you can do everything and still have a relapse—which is incredibly frustrating and disappointing, no doubt. Unfortunately, that’s the nature of bipolar disorder for many people. It is a complex and chronic illness.” What You Need to Know About Relapse in Bipolar Disorder

Real advice for those who’ve attempted suicide, and want to step back into life


Going nowhere slowly zzzzzz Research:

Expert Q&A: Bipolar Disorder

Infradian oscillation of circadian genes in a mouse model of bipolar disorder

Prevalence and clinical features associated with bipolar disorder polypharmacy: a systematic review

Research could lead to new, individualized treatment for bipolar disorder

Theory of Mind Decoding Impairment Associated With Mania in Bipolar Disorder

Brain Abnormalities May Be Biomarkers for Bipolar Disorder

Increased Incidence of Comorbid Bipolar Disorder and Asthma


Controversy: if the palliative care for mental health wasn’t so shitty, conversations like the ones below would be different. Anyway. It is what it fucken is.

Should people with mental health disorders have access to physician-assisted death?

Here is what Dignitas in Switzerland says:

“Contrary to a widely-held opinion, people suffering from mental health problems normally have sufficient capacity of discernment to decide whether they would like to continue living or end their life. Therefore, and as a general rule, they are entitled to ask for an accompanied suicide and receive assistance just as much as people suffering from physical health problems, in order to avoid the high risk of failure. The same applies to healthy people who wish to end their life because they feel that it has become too arduous for them due to old age. There are no rational reasons to patronise these people through paternalism.” source

The next one is a longread.

Letter from Belgium The Death TreatmentWhen should people with a non-terminal illness be helped to die?

world bipolar disorder day linkdump

First of all, RIP Patty Duke.

“While I tend to cringe at the concept of a day for everything (I’m looking at you, National Frozen Food Day), not to mention the idea of reliable posthumous psychiatric diagnosis, I understand the impulse here. People don’t like to talk about mental illness. For God’s sake, we still call it “mental illness,” as though the brain weren’t a fundamental part of the physical body. Given the prevalence of this colossal oversight, not to mention a grossly underfunded mental health system that relies heavily on condescension, coercion and incarceration, it’s hard not to support any day that might bring more attention to brain disorders.” Thriving with Bipolar Disorder

“When you break a leg, you get a cast and people sign it and put smiley faces on it. When you’re given a mental illness diagnosis, you’re cast out.” A family’s mental health journey: Emergency, illness, recovery, stability

This £100 SMARTWATCH will revolutionise life for those with bipolar disorder

Van Gogh, mental illness and the price of genius

Why a Blood Test for Bipolar Disorder Hasn’t Come to Market

Nice to see this one ranking high in Google news alerts. Fryane @ HuffPost
Postpartum Bipolar Disorder: The Invisible Postpartum Mood Disorder

Former Modesto physician tells of struggles with bipolar disorder

‘It probably hurt some stuff’ Carrie Fisher opens up on struggles with drugs and bipolar

Titus Andronicus frontman Patrick Stickles talks about manic depression, his band turning 10 and baby-sitting Craig Finn’s cat

Bipolar disorder sixth leading cause of disability in the world

“The first time we meet just the two of us, you tell me you have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I hardly believe it. You do not conform to any idea I have of a person with bipolar disorder, though the ideas I do have are received, not based on experience. It’s just that you seem to me all right, not terribly different from the way I remember you, though your affect is flatter, hollowed. You wear your defeat.” H. On heroin and harm reduction (longread)

Big Pharma’s worst nightmare – “Jamie Love has spent years battling global drug companies, unshakable in his belief that even the world’s poorest people should have access to life-saving medicines.” (longread)

By the time you read this, I’ll be dead BY JOHN HOFSESS “Between 1999 and 2001, I helped eight people die—including the poet Al Purdy. Now, as I prepare to take my own life, I’m ready to tell my story.” (longread)

Assisted Suicide for Mental Illness Gaining Ground